Words happen like clouds at Sgomento Zurigo / Zürich

Words happen like clouds

Jiajia Zhang, Marco Rigoni, and a text by Janice Lee 

November 5 – December 31, 2022 

Sgomento Zurigo, Zürich 
Olivengasse 7
8032 Zürich



The first lie you were told: You have to earn it. All of it.
The first lie you remember telling: No one sees me.

Grateful reverberations. Eggs. Silos being split open at the seams. Flowering fruit trees. Lips
puckering from sour. Sleep as actual rest. The sound of the bell still washing over me, still
reverberating in all the cells of my body. Walk the dog. Walk yourself. Let’s go home.

Lemon was the word he remembered as he woke up that morning — lemon scent, lemon air
freshener, lemon candle, lemon cookies, fresh squeezed lemonade — but it wasn’t any of
those tastes or smells that lingered in his thoughts, just the word: lemon, the way it felt as he
tossed it around his mind like a juggling ball, just one word thrown around acrobatically —
lemon, lemon, lemon, lemon, lemon, lemon, lemon — until he realized that the other people
on the bus were all staring at him and he suddenly became aware of his body as separate
from the feeling of lemon, still kneeling there in the aisle, one hand raised above him, one
hand palm down on the cold, grimy, and slightly damp floor, bent over as if beginning a race,
but with nowhere to go; he couldn’t even remember where home was, where he had come
from, where his current destination was, just the word “lemon”, this 5-letter word haunting
him like an overgrown chuckling toddler, and he couldn’t lessen the grip, no not yet, not until
he had completed something he had yet to complete, but he didn’t know what that was either,
so he slowly got up, collected himself, brought himself over to a seat before seeing fall on the
floor in front of him, an apricot.

Sometimes a fruit, like a lump of earth, stops still in its tracks while on its way home.
Understand that a lump of earth might get stuck in your throat, and then all of the language
you hold in your body will be blocked before it leaves the mouth. The word for that feeling
rising in your belly on the tip of your — and you mouth the word, remembering how it feels
to move the lips, the feeling of the word in the throat, the mouth, the release — the throat
expands and the lump expands and you feel the urge to repeat certain movements over and
over again that come out in varied forms of u-u-u-utterances, but not the right utterances,
certain words, entire inheritances and genealogies in the form of gasps and farewells. All
gestures of parting begin this way, with an open mouth and a lump in the throat, with the
performance of affection and then the complete disintegration of self into another self. The
quietly occurring performance isn’t a performance but a memory, isn’t a memory but a
prophesy, isn’t a prophesy but has occurred already, hasn’t occurred yet but is about to be
uttered. The utterance is a lie. The lie is genuine. The lie is the reverberation of hope.
The lie is that you’re sitting down at home alone. Where in the body can you locate the lie? 

Janice Lee